August 11th 2011

At 11:59pm Alexander Marcos made his grand entry into this world. 19.5 inches long, 6lb 9oz of pure perfection! I wasn't sure if I could do it natural, but was also petrified of an epidural. After laboring for a few hours I ended up with the epidural, and was nearly instant relief. 7 pushes, and he was born <3

I was too scared to open my eyes once he was out, it was all happening too fast. I was scared I would be a bad mom, that I wasn't enough for him. As soon as I opened my eyes and held him for the first time, it changed my life. Without him, I don't know where I would have ended up. This little tiny baby boy completed me, he was all I needed, he made me feel like a person, like I am on this earth for a reason!

I've never felt like that before, so it was a pretty eye opening moment for me.